Wednesday, April 28, 2010

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." ~Leo Buscaglia

Gooooooood Morning!  Goodness it's cold out there this morning!  I actually had to turn the heat on yesterday (& it's still on).  What happen to that wonderful spring weather we were having?


We got moved this past weekend other than a few boxes we're heading over to get this morning of things that just have to be stored; Christmas decorations, old books, etc. My brother came Monday and got our internet hooked up.  I may have tried more than once to kill him when we were kids, but I sure am glad I didn't succeed (& for more reasons than just the internet!).  Dad was right all those years ago:  now that we're grown up, we really do need each other! And I'm glad that I always know Adam is a part of my life & got my back.  


The new place is wonderful!  We are loving being a little ways outside of town and it's great knowing that Liv is safe with good neighbors.  I'm so grateful to my cousin (& neighbor!) Sheena for helping us get this place.  We couldn't have done it without her watchful eye & inside info.  The house is a 4 BR, 2 BA so we have plenty of space.  The only down side is that there is no dishwasher & ya'll know how I feel about doing dishes :( But Toby said we could get a portable for now so we're going to be looking for one VERY soon.  


I have to say we would have never gotten our things moved without the help of a great group of guys.  Sheena's husband, Chad, a couple of friends of Toby's, BJ & Kevin, and my dad & Toby's dad really made it happen.  We rented a U-Haul Sunday so that we could move regardless of the rain (which just was not going to cooperate with us).  My step-mom came & helped me with the little stuff we could haul in the car & the men really worked hard to get it all done. It wouldn't have been possible without them & saying "Thank you" just doesn't even seem close to repayment for all their hard work.  But a big "Thank You!" all the same! We are SOOOO blessed to have good people like them all in our lives!  


One more week and my classes will be over with for the semester!  This will also mark the end of my Ivy Tech experience.  I'm registered for classes at VUJC in Aug. so I'll have the summer months to finish up getting my other requirements (CPR training, shots, physical, etc) and then it will be time to get moving on actually becoming a nurse!  I'm both excited and a little scared.  So much is riding on my ability to do this and there's always that fear of the unknown. But I know that you never get anything other than what you have until you do something different than what you've been doing.  This is the first step down the path to a great future for me & for my family!  Still, I have to admit, I'm really looking forward to having this summer off.  There is so much I need to get done around here & I'm ready to just not be tied to a stupid textbook for a while. 


I'm also ready to get back to my blogs.  Mom's Kitchen has been neglected for almost a month now.  Of course, the real life mom's kitchen has also been neglected for a while now.  We've eaten out nearly every meal for over a week & I am SOOOOO ready to get back in the kitchen and make some home-cooked meals for us.  I've got to sit down this afternoon & get my grocery list & menu together.  There's a program I found called e-mealz.com that I'd like to try, but I need to get us settled in a little more first. This plan costs $1.25/wk and each week they send you a menu of meals & a shopping list.  Each week is different, you can pick if you have special diet concerns (they even have a WW plan!!) and each week is designed to feed a family of 4-6 for $75 or less!  My Cheapskate Lady newsletter mentioned the site & the program is highly recommended by Dave Ramsey too.  When & if I get around to checking it out, I'll let you know how it goes.


Well, that's it for this morning.  I'd love to post a pic from Liv's first school play, but that'll have to come later. I'm already running behind & need to get busy.  

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Quick Update

Just a quick update for now:


As many of you already know we found out over the weekend that we got the house we were hoping to rent!!!  We were so happy & so thankful that it all worked out.  On the negative side, the people before us had dogs (yes, plural & one was a bull mastiff we are told!) and those dogs were allowed to have their way with the house and the carpet.  YUCK!!  So the house does not smell real lovely.  On a positive note, though, we have been pleasantly surprised by the landlord's willingness to help us make this right. We've had some real doozies in the past in the landlord department, but I have to admit I am actually very impressed with this one.  He is really trying to take care of this issue & many landlords wouldn't.  I appreciate that.  


The house is a 4BR, 2BA just outside the town limits. It was built sometime in the early 2000s so it's actually a very nice place with a HUGE yard. The best part:  our next door neighbor is my cousin Sheena & her husband Chad & their kids! It will be super nice having them for neighbors.  In fact, I have Sheena to thank for helping us get this one.  She really went above & beyond to find out about the place, when it would be empty, and keep us posted as the old renters moved out.  Without her help, I'm certain we'd still be looking for a place to go. 


I'm spending the week cleaning & boxing.  We're hoping to move this weekend if the rain doesn't mess up our plans. If all goes well we should be in the new place by next week! Yeah! 


Toby is still planning on taking off toward the end of May and we hope to take some time & relax.  After all, our wedding anniversary is coming up on the 6th and we'll probably be celebrating by unpacking boxes! haha!  Since the move & school (yeah, I'm still trying to keep up with that too!) is all-consuming we decided to push back our trip to Tennessee until later in the year.  As I was looking up my school schedule next fall to see when I had a fall break, I realized that we could go mid-October and be able to see TN in peak fall color!  I've always wanted to do that, but never got the chance.  So we moved our reservations to October. I know it'll probably be as busy as all get out down there, but I will have just finished my first midterms of nursing school & I bet ya I'll just be glad to get away for a couple days.


Anyway, I've got blogs to catch up on, some Sunshine Awards to give away :) and lots more to blog about, but for now I'm headed to the shower & then some homework before heading to bed.  Liv has her 1st consultation with the orthodontist in the morning. EEK! 





Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Waiting...

Patience may be a virtue, but it's one that I forgot to get in line for.  I use to be even more impatient than I am now but, believe it or not, motherhood has mellowed me considerably. 


We are suppose to know more about our housing prospect this Thurs.  At first I was like "Oh, that's less than a week away!" Now, I'm like "How MUCH longer???"  In the meantime I wait (which I am not real good at doing).  


I have packed up our bedroom, Liv's room and the living room stuff. But it's hard to get in the packing mood when I don't know if I'm going yet or not. Guess I know I'm going sometime so that ought to be enough to motivate me (but it isn't).  I also have been working like a mad lady trying to get my homework worked ahead. Yesterday I managed to complete this entire week's work in one day.  It was NOT easy.  Today, I've written my final paper for my Sociology class. I just want to read over it one more time before I turn it in . Tomorrow I am going to work on the rest of next week's homework and try to pass the time before Thurs. arrives and I can learn more info about our housing situation. 


If Thurs. brings good news then I am going to be busy, busy, busy.  If it brings bad news, we'll be back to square one. Which is depressing, but I'm not going to think about that right now. 


Tonight is Week 2 weigh in at WW.  I've stuck to the plan all week.  I don't really think I've lost any weight this week, but we'll see.  After last week's big loss, I wouldn't be surprised to see a small gain.  That's usually how I roll....3 steps forward and 2 steps back.  I do feel better though and more in control of me so that's a benefit regardless of whether or not the scales are my friend. 



Thursday, April 8, 2010

"We are never prepared for what we expect." ~James A. Michener, Caravans

Liv stayed home today with a stopped up head.  Spring is pretty to look at, but it wrecks havoc on Miss Pea's allergies.  I've been working away on my homework for this week and I'm happy to report I have one exam left and I have successfully completed this week's work.  I work so much better under pressure and deadlines.  It stresses me, but I tend to not put things off when I have a lot to do.  I have just 4 more weeks until this semester and my time with Ivy Tech is over. Next week looks to be another challenging week with another exam and a ton more work in my time-consuming American Lit. class.  (I'm still trying to figure out what I was thinking when I signed up for that class!?!?)  

Not really any new news on the house search front other than I did get a call from a guy in Jasper who has a place he'd like to rent to us.  We REALLY want to stay in Orleans so we're holding out as long as we can.  The one prospect we have here in Orleans would be PERFECT for us, so keep praying that it'll work out. I still don't want to say too much on here for some other reasons I can't discuss right now either. I'll write more about it when we know something for sure.  I can't get excited about it until I have something in writing. I'm quickly learning my lesson about how far you can trust someone just on their word.  Sad that it's that way, but it is. 

I am truly grateful for the people in our lives who continue to pray for us, support us, & encourage us.  I am reminded daily of how small and minor our troubles are in comparison to some around us. I often feel guilty for worrying about what appears so trivial when put in context with what could be troubling us.  I am grateful for our health and the health of those we love, grateful that Toby has a job, grateful that we have each other, and grateful for the opportunities that always seem to present themselves at the perfect moment. Even though I get frustrated, I'm glad that life's timing is under the control of someone else who holds the master clock. Life has shown me that He knows much more about what is best for me than I do and I find it much easier to trust that things will all work out when keeping that in mind. 




Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Tuesday's Tales

Today I could not hide from the scales (nor them from me) & had to face the truth at my 2nd Weight Watchers meeting.  I was expecting a small loss & had accepted that any loss is better than a gain & a step in the right directions.  Imagine my surprise when I stepped on the scales and was down 6.2 lbs!!!!! Of course, this is only my first full week & a bigger loss is not uncommon, but any loss is uncommon for me.  I was both excited & motivated to do it again this week.  That is double the weight I lost in the 1st week when I did WW several years ago and it encourages me that perhaps the medications I am taking for my PCOS are truly helping.

So, I'm tossing my crutch in the trash.  I may have PCOS but it does not have me! If I can lose 6 lbs. in 1 week without exercising, imagine what I can do once I get back into a exercise routine?!?!  Imagine what a difference a year could make for me?!?!  I know it will get harder.  Right now I am up in the higher points range & it makes food choices much easier.  When you get down to those last 10-20 lbs it gets much more difficult, but I'm ready.  I feel in control of my own body for the 1st time in a long time.

We also got some positive news on our home search, but nothing is a done deal yet so I don't want to discuss until I know more for sure. Just please keep praying for us.  Toby & I both are at wits end & running out of people to contact & time. Hopefully within the next couple weeks I'll have some good news I can report on this subject.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Just Another Manic Monday

What to report tonight?  Well, it was actually hot here today.  Isn't it still April?  What's up with all the humidity already?  But, I can't complain too much because the sun did shine most of the day and it was a gorgeous day outside.  


Tomorrow is my first weigh in at WW.  I'm anxious to see if I've made any progress. I know what my scales here at home say, but I want to see what their scales say before I get too excited. So far this week I've done very well. I've avoided all soda.  That's been tough.  I had so became addicted to McDonald's Cokes. Just writing the words makes me long for one - haha! But I've stuck with water, unsweetened iced tea & coffee only.   It does give me a sense of control and I think that's important right now. I've stuck to the plan and yet I've eaten many of the same foods I usually eat, but with a much greater awareness for portion control. I've also switched out a lot of the foods we were eating with healthier alternatives.  One of which is the switch from regular sandwich bread to something called Sandwich Thins by the Arnold company.  




I am not a fan of sliced bread.  I can eat it (if it's soft, white, Bunny bread) but in all honesty, it's just something to hold the goodies of my sandwiches together.  So this ultra thin bread is perfect for me!  It's only 100 calories, 1 g. fat, & has 5g of fiber in each whole sandwich!! 

I have decided that when I reach my 10% goal, I will begin working on my exercising habit again.  I figure by that time I'll have the food changes more ingrained in my lifestyle and can work on creating another good habit. 

The housing search is going.  It's better than it was only in that we have a lot more feelers out there, but so far we're not hearing anything. I am starting to get that feeling though that it's coming together and I feel like we're on the brink of something popping up for us.  I am literally asking everyone I know as well as everyone I come in contact with (and yes, I'm sure many of them think I'm nuts, but that's OK too).  You can't put that many lines in the water without something taking a bite so surely we'll know something sooner rather than later.  This waiting around stuff is enough to make a person batty! 

I've actually made a dent in this week's homework, which is reassuring. Although realizing that one of my bigger papers is due on Thurs instead of Sun was not cool. Guess it's better that I realized it now rather than on Thurs night, though :) Come on May 8th!!!

Well, that's all for tonight. More tomorrow from my first weigh in! 


Friday, April 2, 2010

What A Beautiful Day!!!

I happy to say that I woke up feeling much better today.  I'm so blessed to have people in my life who encourage me and are willing to help me along when I need a little shove. Sometimes we just need a down day to get us going again. I think I had been pushing that "processing" time off & it just finally caught up with me. 


Today, Toby cut the grass for the first time this year.  I love the smell of fresh cut grass and it really made it feel like spring. 


The windows are open, the breeze blowing through the house, and it's so nice. I'm feeling much more myself today & I'm loving this weather!  


To all of you who just keep encouraging me/us...THANKS!!


Oh, and by the way.....Happy Easter to everyone!!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Down in the Dumps

I consider myself a fairly positive upbeat person.  I'm the one who tends to see the light at the end of a dark tunnel before others can & I'm usually pretty optimistic about things.  I didn't use to be this way, but as it did for many things, motherhood changed my outlook on things. Years later when Toby got really sick, having this kind of outlook pulled me through some of the darkest days of my life. But, today, I just can't muster up the strength to bring forth that attitude.  For the first time in a very long time, I am down in the dumps. 


I'm shocked at myself because I feel like I should have expected something to not go as planned.  I mean, that nearly always happens when you start to think everything is going OK.  (Or at least it does for us).  I've come to expect (and accept) the bumps in the road.  I find they make us stronger and mold us into the person that we need to be. So waking up this morning and finding it impossible to shake the stress-induced nausea and tears is quite a change for me. 


It's not that I expect anyone else to have the answers, I just need to get some of this off my chest and maybe, in the process, work through it in my own mind. I'm usually the kind of person who can take bad news, spend a day processing it,  then put my big girl panties on and take action or at least deal with whatever it is. I'm not sure what seems to be my problem this time. 


The house search is not going well at all.  Every place I find that is available won't take Miss Bailey.  I know some people are like "Well, get rid of the dumb dog then!" but it's not that simple.  We've had her since she was only 5 weeks old. She doesn't really like other people, but she LOVES us.  She has all these allergies & ailments and I know that no one else would care for her the way she needs to be cared for.  Just the thought of having to walk away and leave her behind is unimaginable. I can't do it.  Won't do it to Liv.  So I'm stuck with finding someone who'll let her come along. 


I'm frustrated that things are the way they are.  Frustrated that I let myself be duped into thinking I could trust someone's word.  We all know that as sad as it is, the world doesn't work that way anymore.  I'm frustrated that every road is like a dead end, frustrated that every answer comes with more questions than satisfaction. 


I'm hurt and shocked by the people in our lives who don't seem to care at all.  And, as usual, I'm always surprised (although I don't know why) at the good people who rally around us when things aren't going good.  It's so easy to be a friend to someone when life is going great, but it's much more difficult to be the shoulder to cry on when things are not going so great.  There are people in our lives that I feel like are celebrating that this has happened to us, that feel like we deserve the hardships and heartache. To these people, and I think they all know who they are, "secretly" think what you will but be cautious because the higher we put ourselves on a pedestal the further we will have to fall...and we all fall at some time or another. 


I'm forever thankful for the people who I feel supporting us...for the people who check in to see if we're doing OK, for the ones who just say "Hang in there".  


My dad always told me, "If it was easy, anyone could do it."  I bet I heard those words a million times growing up.  I try to remind myself of the big goal.  Of all the reasons I'm fighting my way through school, asking Toby & Liv to make those sacrifices for 2 more years.  But some days it's more than I want to handle. This semester has been hell to begin with.  It makes me second guess my choices about everything. 


I try to remind myself this is not the worst thing I've been through. Not even close. We are healthy, we're all together, the rest will work itself out.  I'm trying to process this so that I can get back to my normal attitude about things.  For years I've been an approach-it-with-an-outside-the-box-mentality type gal.  At least tomorrow is another day...


Wow, what a depressing post but it feels good to put it all out there. Maybe now I can stop wanting to cry every time some one tells me it'll be OK....In the meantime, someone tell me a funny joke - haha!